"If I gave you pretty enough words.
could you pain a picture of us that works.
an emphasis on function rather than design.
aren't you tired cause I will carry you, on a broken back
and blown out knees, I have been where you are for a while..
Aren't you tired of being weak?
Such rage that you could scream. the stars right out of the sky
And destroy the prettiest starry night. every evening that I die. alone
I am exhumed just a little less human, so much more bitter and cold.
after all these images of pain, have cut right thru you,
I will kiss every scar, and weep you are not alone...
then I'll show you that place in my chest where my heart still tries to beat.
aren't you tired of being weak?
Such rage that you could scream. the stars right out of the sky
and destroy the prettiest starry night. every evening that I die
live love burn and die"

                       */Atreyu

                     " Lip Gloss and Black "

              ..Great song. Atreyu Owns.

   */ Oww oww.. Smarty Pants Hail has done it again. I have finally remembered my password. [ Bow ] Yes, quite the feat

   It is now 12:23 a.m and I am procrastinating.. taking a shower of course. It's not that I don't like the feeling of being clean, I just don't feel like getting all wet and shit.. Arrg. I have been putting the bitch off forever now. After I am finished with this, I guess I will hop in.

   I don't really feel like going into detail about what has happened since I last wrote. I will probably do that tomorrow. Damn, it's been a little more than a month.. a lot has changed since then, I guess. But again, I will write about that bullshit some other time.

  Well, I think I will go now. My shower is beckoning me, yet again. Short entry, I know. But it's not as though anyone reads it. Ahh well. I will most likely write tomorrow, if I am home. Adios Kids. Have fun, goodnight.

                                          */ Hail

*/ Update : 10:44 pm

   Hey hey, I'm actually updating : Gasp : haha.

Well, today I didn't end up going to Jesse's. I had to go to my dad's to eat some shrimp. Yum yum. Heh. But Friday I am going to his house and spending the night. Damn, I love when it's my mom's weekend. She's great. I can always do something on her weekends.

   I guess Shannah and Danielle got upset with me, again. Here's the deal, they told me awhile ago about their plans on Saturday, right, and so I told Jesse I would come over on Friday. And then, last night Shannah was like " Oh we're going to smoke on friday " and I thought nothing of it. I just figured they were doing it both days, ya know. So then, today she's all like " are you still down with our plans on Friday ".. I was like what the fuck are you talking about.. She asks If I was still going to do shit with them, and I was like, no I already told Jesse I was sleeping over and shit, You guys told me Saturday blahh blahh.. So she's mad or was mad and thinks it's my fault. Oh well. I can't help it. They know if I were to just dis them, they would be pissed to, and I'm not doing that to Jesse..

   OK, now that I let that shit out.. lol. Man I'm feinin right now. I think I'm going to light one and end this right here. I will write tomorrow. Adios..

                         */ Hail

" I'm screaming out but you dont hear what I say.
I'm grounded now in my dreams I wish to fly away.
I scream with my anger my lungs gasp for oxygen.
When this comes I wont wake up.
I can sleep through lies and infidelity.
I will give all I can.
I will give all I have but I fear it's not enough.
I'm screaming out but you dont hear what I say.
I'm grounded now in my dreams I wish to fly away "

" In My Dreams I Can Fly " - Evergreen Terrace ( Rocks Hardcore)

    Well now, it's been a fucking lifetime since I've last written here. I think I will try to keep up with this, but no promises. It's not like anyone really reads this so, whatever.

   Man, this morning, on  my way to school ( which I later found out was closed ) I fell down my front stairs. It hurt like a motherfucker. My ass is still wet and I think I may have bruised my tailbone. Arrg. Well, atleast there is no school, which inturn, means no proficiency test, MATH proficency to be exact. Fuck math. Hah.

   mMm.. I don't know what I am going to do today. I had plans to go over to Katlyn's after school, but who knows if I will end up doing that. I'm only going because Jesse said he'd kick my ass if I didn't, lol. I will most likely go over there, either that or be a bum all day and sit around my house. Since I'm already dressed, I don't feel quite as lazy, though. Decisions, decisions. Psssh.

   Well, I think I am going to go now. I might update later or sometime soon. Adios kids, have fun.

                              */ Hail
                                  

Music: "The Fear"- Trust Co.

Standing here
I'm cold inside with fear
And I can't feel my soul
Take me in I'm yours again

For awhile - just like the last time
Lead me from the fear
And I won't leave you here
There's a way out
There's a way outThere's a way from here... believe

I feel weak
I'm slowly losing touch
With what is left in me

Take me in
I'm yours again

For awhile - just like the first time
I need you
To keep me here
I'm starting over again

Hmm.. I think from now on I will always start with the lyrics to a good song. So, how is everyone? I'm alright. I didn't go to school today.. My eye is fucked up, so I can't wear my contacts, and that gives me a migraine. I left school erly yesterday and my mom didn't "allow" me to go today. Lol. I could have went though. Oh well. I'll just have EVEN more work to do than I already do. Ahhh fuck it all. I need to start  caring about that shit again, or else I'll be kicked out of all honors..

Anyways.. I finally finished Fight Club last night. Woo.. That shit is awesome. It's a totally fucked up movie, but that's what I like. You either love that movie or hate it. I think I'll go watch Almost Famous in awhile.. Haven't watched that in long time.

Man, I have a pretty busy weekend I guess. Tonight Danielle and Shannah are sleeping over.. Tommorow I think we're going bowling..Than sunday We're going to the mall. Woo Mall rats! Love that movie.

Ahhh.. Im fuckin' bored as hell. I think I will go now.. I might write later if I get time. If Not.. Have a kickass night everyone! Later Kids.

-Hail

 Music:Rufio "Tears"

"I sit and hear you sleep I dont want to go Your there beside me but your so far away I talk to you while your asleep

You cant hear a word You can hear everything
Tears are feelings we can't say Tears mean that you care Tears are mixed emotions Tears are more than tears The pouring rain
from my eyes means to much to keep inside I sit and watch you leave my life forever

 I know youll be gone so long

My last words are nothing and I tell you I care and nothing more I cant say how I feel so I cry

Tears are feelings we cant say
Tears mean that you care
Tears are mixed emotions
Tears are more than tears

Its the light
Behind the shadow
That sacred face
Behind the mask"

Just Had to start off with the song. Great song. Ahh.. what to say, what to say. I just got home from the movies awhile ago. Slept through half, so of course it was great. Heh. Hmmf. I'm pretty bored right now, the only thing interesting going on is that I happen to be talking to Tyler. Other than that, I'm sitting here Listening to some spiffy music. Woo hoo. lol. But that's good enough for me, I'd rather not have a
million unimportant people talking to me all at once. That happens alot. Ahh. Well now its just myself and the music, Tyler just left me. Last night I watched " Dude, Where's My Car" and I also started " Fight Club" It was hela good, but than I fell asleep. So tonight, After my shower, I will finish it. I love the whole "Bob with bitch tits" thing. Hah. And "Dude, Where's My Car" had me laughing the whole time. It may have been like my 6th time seeing it, but it's pretty damn funny. If you haven't seen those movies, I suggest you get your ass up and rent them. ;oP I just read my cousins journal. I agree with her about the whole.. hmm.. what shall I call it, Controversy on whos who, I guess. Lol. When I replied to someone's entry about Kristen, I just thought it was someone talking shit on her. So Naturally, I defend. But now I see that it's all for the fun of it. Hell I used to do that shit. Make people mad and make it a mystery to whom I am.. Oh well. I should have examined the whole "situation" first.. Advise to all: Never let what someone says about you go to heart. 1.) They may be jokeing or what not. 2.) Who gives a FUCK what others think about you..

Well Kidos, I'm going to go now. I might Update again later on, If not, Have Fun. Later Days.

-Hail

Music: Simple Plan- "I'd Do Anything"

Hey guys.. Hah I'm saying that as if anyone is re ading this crap anyways.. How is everyone? I am alright. Just got home from school awhile ago and waiting for my mom to get ready. We are off to see Harry Potter.. Lol Though this will be my second time. Ahh.. Anyways. Nothing real interesting happend today so I'm pretty much babbling. Oh well. I'm not haveing a birthday party, but My mom is takeing Dani, Shannah, and I bowling. So that's kewl. And I plan on haveing a new years party at the Green Tree. Just have to figure all the details out. I hope Danielle's cousin Amanda can chaperone.. because I certainly don't want my sister or anything. She would embarass the shit out of me. Lol. But Hey, I still love her. Well.. That's All I have for now. I might write later on in the day. Enjoy yourselfs. Later Days.

-Hail